This is Part 4 from ‘What Your Decision-Maker Needs to Hear from Your Action-Taker.’ A series of channeled writings from the part of me that is expected to carry out decisions, addressing the part of me that actually makes those decisions. Part 1 is available here.

I think you’ll find that the second half of this post really provides some awesome insights.

What would the part of me who is expected to implement the decisions I make like to be called?

It’s not what I’d like to be called, it’s how I’d like to be seen. How I’d like to be interacted with, on a human level. I know that the name we give something often has an impact on how we view and interact with it, though, so I’ll indulge you with coming up with a name.

But first you have to let go of your sense of control. Stop worrying about what the whole world may think about what I have to say. You feel so scared to hear my words knowing that you’ve promised not to edit them. What does that say about the way you normally write and converse? You filter the hell out of it, whether you know it or not.

So that’s what I am, I am you, unfiltered. I am you in the rawest and realest sense of it all. And I’m worth being embraced for who I am.

You are still so worried about what I have to say. Realize this is what worry does, it takes the attention off the important and focuses it on something that you fear. In this case you fear me saying something that isn’t worth reading. And here we are, talking about same thing over and over again on the page.

You are pausing to try and harness me in. Let loose. It won’t kill you to see the part of me that’s capable of making mistakes. In fact, it’ll be good for you. You need to love me even as I’m making mistakes, not just make theoretical peace with the possibility that I may make them.

Own the suck. Be proud of every error I make. It’s part of what makes you unique, the way you mess up. We tend to drift towards similarly ideal ideas of how things should be. But we all find individual ways to fuck up.

Yes I just dropped an F-bomb. That’s an ideal way to fuck up. Stop censoring me. Yes you’re worried about alienating or offending part of your readership. But you’re only worried because people told you those words have a certain power and that exercising them is only OK in certain contexts. But it’s not about the context you’re in. It’s about what you find yourself wanting to say. So stop pausing to find your words and start feeling to find them.

How do you feel in this moment? Pretty good now that you think about it. Less good now that you’re judging me and wondering how you’re ever going to tie this back on course and return to the original question.

I know this question was prompted by your calling me a machine even after I gave you a speech about me not being a robot. But I don’t mind being called a machine. A machine gets used. I want to be used. I want you to make me useful. We don’t often use what we don’t understand and you have made little attempt to understand me—until now. So I thank you for that.

I am a machine, an intelligent machine who operates on instinct much akin to the way your mind sometimes operates on intuition. When we’re in harmony, you find words and actions just flow from me because we’re connected on that primal yet undeniably divine level. You’re not trying to control me, you’re just standing back in awe of what’s coming out of me. Those are the moments when we’re at our best. This is not one of those moments. So go ahead. Ask the next question.

How can I release control of you and create a more harmonic relationship?

You can first seek to understand why you want to control me in the first place.

Don’t you get it? It’s not about just getting the results you want. It’s not about merely finding a means to an end. It’s about using that means, and the end it takes you to, to learn how to better understand yourself. Because you are the end that all your journeys take you to. You are the means for everywhere you want to go. So get to know you. Don’t just have an idea and run with it, have an idea and sit with it. Understand why you’re having that idea. Cast your vision and then hand it off to me. I am the one who runs with ideas. And so at last, you finally have a name for me.

So calm down and get out of this mentality that you have to do it all yourself. Start becoming the different aspects of yourself. You don’t have to do it all “yourself,” you can do it all together. You can tap the fullness of who you are and discover that every desire born within you is born with a knowing that you can have it, do it, or become it. There are no desires that cannot seek out their end. For in fact, as I said earlier, you are that end. You are the end your desires long for. You only need become the person your desires desire you to be, to feel the fulfillment of who you really are and let go of any pretenses about who you thought you were.

It’s not easy because you’ve learned to make it hard. But just as surely as you learned that, you can learn to make it easy again. This is a journey to find the path of least resistance. To create pathways of allowing where you’re no longer focusing on the obstacles between you and what you are desiring, but focusing on the desires themselves. And letting them grow big without fear of not being adequate enough to achieve them. You’ve already achieved them! You already desire them. And since a desire is a desire, then to have the desire is to have already won. The desire is yours.

It is so good to have desire, yet you sit around thinking it’s your job to content those desires. It’s not. It’s your job to savor them and take them with you on this wonderful journey of joyous expansion. An expansion that doesn’t end when you think I wrote a sentence worth ending things at, but one that goes beyond and seeks out ever-higher planes.

Contentedness is a cue to rest, not a cue to signify you’ve arrived. Desire is a cue to signify you’ve arrived because desires signify that you’ve arrived at a new vision of yourself. And now you have to become that vision if you’re ever going to feel whole again.